Rebirth handbook - Chapter 60
Was Qin Qin at the wrong? Su Ying had repeatedly remembered how she and her good friend had been together since childhood. Qin Qin was a very good person. She had always acted as Su Ying’s protector. It could be said that she had been the best person to Su Ying since she was a child. From any point of view, Su Ying couldn’t blame Qin Qin for her current position. In fact, Su Ying never blamed her but she just felt sad for her.
So, was Xiang Yang wrong? Over the years, Xiang Yang wasn’t very close to Su Ying, but had fulfilled the duties of a boyfriend. When Su Ying encountered difficulties, he would accompany her, and prepare gifts and surprises for her every holiday. When she fell ill, he left his job to take care of her. Compared to her parents who didn’t care much about her since she was a child, Su Ying thought that Qin Qin and Xiang Yang were the most important people to her.
But now, Su Ying clearly realized that she was the barrier that separated those two people, and if that continued, all three of them would be injured because of her. It would be fine if she died on the bus at that time, or if… if she strayed into that strange world, she didn’t even think about coming back.
“It would be fine if… I died.” That thought took root in her heart and clamoured wildly. Su Ying looked around blankly, staggered to her feet, took out a sharp knife from the drawer, and severely moved it on her wrist. The intense pain made her tremble, blood gushed out, made Su Ying’s pajamas wet in a moment, and then she dropped the knife to the ground.
She walked, on the sticky blood, towards the bed, laid back on the bed, and shrank herself into a ball. She was so tired that she never wanted to open her eyes again. There was a bright red colour in her eyes, Su Ying blankly looked at the red flowers swaying in front of her eyes, and heard a sound in her ears.
“Do you want to be reborn again?” It was a woman who talked, an indescribable woman. She wore a red dress and stood among flowers. Su Ying didn’t know what was going on and she didn’t want to know. She just shook her head and said, “Rebirth? To get hurt by others again? No, I don’t want to.”
The woman in the red dress smiled mysteriously, “You know, I can see a person’s heart. I see it, you have a regret in your heart. Before you died, you wished you could stay in that strange world, the world you lived in after the accident, just around that monster, because that was the only person who really loved you, and won’t hurt you.”
Su Ying, “Yes, I left that monster in order to return to my world… No, he is not a monster, maybe for him, I who broke into that world, am a monster.”
“Do you want to try again? Try to stay with the monster that gradually moved you?”
Su Ying, “Can I?”
The woman in the red dress turned her face, and curled her red lips, “Of course, you only need to give me one thing.”
It seemed to be a bizarre dream, but everything in that dream seemed so clear that Su Ying clearly remembered every word that the woman in red dress said. She felt the dazzling sunlight in her eyes, she turned her body involuntarily. Her heavy eyelids opened. Su Ying saw the green grass in front of her eyes, and the colourful butterflies on the green grass in front of her eyes.
Su Ying sat up with her hands on her body, touched something with her hand, and looked over in a daze, only to find that it was a bulging hiking bag. The bag was very familiar to her. She bought it when she went on the tour. As if she realized something, Su Ying immediately looked at herself, denim shirt, black trousers and hiking shoes. Those were the clothes she wore on the day the tour group died. She thought she was bound to die, who knew that she woke up and found herself in a strange world—
Su Ying suddenly raised her head and looked around. The smooth and sturdy white trunks were very tall, and the white leaves grew on it but the tip wasn’t visible, and they grew sparsely, so the sun could shine without obstacles. There were no branches on the tall trunks. The trees in that area were all strange trees that Su Ying didn’t know before.
It was the place she saw when she woke up after the accident in the strange world!
“Could it be that, as the woman in red in the dream said, I was reborn back to that moment when she first came to another world?!“ Could all that really start over?” She was excited.
As long as she didn’t go back, her parents would be satisfied, and Qin Qin and Xiang Yang would be together and well. And…the guy who took care of her in that world wouldn’t be hurt as she won’t leave him this time. Her heartbeat raised. Her nose was so sour that she almost wanted to cry. But it wasn’t the time to cry. Su Ying picked up her backpack and looked in one direction. In the past, after the accident, she was injured and was barely conscious, that was when she ran into that guy there. Then she was taken back to his lair.
This time, she has to go to find him and confirm that all that was happening was a reality or not. Su Ying walked in that direction with her bag on her back.